Worry Wart

Afternoon everyone,

Some days, pregnancy sucks.

For the past few days I've been having completely irrational fears about the safety of my unborn child. I can't pin point where it began but thankfully it ended today with a midwife appointment. For god knows what reasons, I thought my baby had died. I seriously, could not sleep, have barely eaten, and have just been generally anxious. I have spent hours on my back, poking and prodding my uterus to see if I could get the baby moving, and just had nothing. My boobs were suddenly not so tender and I just didn't 'feel pregnant' anymore. It was terrifying. With B, I never had this sudden overwhelming fear, so over a few days my anxiety just grew by the minute. I'd like to take this opportunity to point out how fucking shit google is also, forums can piss right off. Never, ever, search on google if you think something is wrong during pregnancy, I have well and truly learnt my lesson there.
Today, after numerous phone calls to many doctors in the area who all refuse to do fetal heartrate tests (say wahhh?), I rang my midwife. I actually have no idea why she wasn't my first point of contact (this would be the most logical thing to do and I will definitely take note for future dilemmas). I think I was afraid of her thinking I was a hypochondriac nutter before she had even met me. Anyway, she told me the clinic in Fremantle was open today and to pop in to get a fetal heartrate test. Maia, the midwife in the clinic today, found the heartbeat within 5 seconds. It literally felt like a tonne of bricks had been lifted off my shoulders, absolute blissful music to my ears, and I shed a few tears. Hormones.
Looking back, I wish I had more confidence in myself and in my body to grow this beautiful being. I should have had more confidence, and now I do. Woman are made for this, and moreover- I have done this before. Whatever came over me, I am just so stoked to be rid of it. And in a couple more weeks I daresay I will be laughing at my irrational self when I am getting kung fu kicked 24/7.

Drama over... Thank goodness!

Meanwhile, it is another shitty day in good old sunny Western Australia, and I am struggling to get my washing done!! Watching that mountain grow by the machine is starting to stress me out, and leaving us with limited clothing options. Sunshine, where art thou??

In other news, I just made the most delicious omelette for lunch. I've always found omelettes so hard to master but I think I finally have it! The trick is to add a splash of water to the eggs rather than milk, and to leave the egg in the pan after the first pour for much longer than you think could possibly be legit without burning. Trust me, your eggs will be fine!


Feta & Tomato Omelette

2 eggs and 1 egg white + a splash of water
Toppings:
crumbled feta
spinach
tomato
(with a side of avocado for good measure)

Leave the egg in the frypan for at least 3 minutes or until it starts bubbling. Lift the sides with a fish slice to be sure of non sticking. Then add whatever toppings you like, and flip one side over onto the toppings. Leave for 1 min and then flip the entire omelette. Leave again for another 30 sec- 1 minute and voila!! Your gourmet omelette is ready to be inhaled!

 This- plus a hot lemon water, totally hit the spot for lunch today

 

(I also grabbed dessert for later.....whittakers I love you.)

Thought of the day "Fuck you google"

Has anyone else been through a similar pregnancy "freak out"? If so, how did you cope with it?

G x