How are we all?
Well, I for one, am exhausted. Really and truly exhausted.
Oscar is coming up 8 weeks now (!!!!!) and all I can think about is the fact that I haven't slept for longer than 4 hours at a time for 8 whole weeks. That's 56 days of slow, sleep deprived torture.
Lately, it's been 2-3 hour stretches mostly and I'm really feeling the pinch. I'm horrendously grumpy, lethargic, and totally over it. Whyyyy will he not sleep for longer? I don't know whether it's because he's just incredibly hungry, or whether he just needs to learn a bit of self soothing or what, but either way- something's got to give before I crack & have a major meltdown.
Introducing formula is one option, although I'm really not keen on giving that a go just yet. Supposedly a bottle of formula before bed should help really hungry babies sleep longer- but I'm a firm believer in 'breast is best' and I want to give him that goodness for as long as possible, particularly now as he is still so fresh. Once he hits the 12 week mark, I may have to re assess though as it is really affecting my quality of life. I have found myself feeling really down and out some days and its horrible, not only for me but for Blake & Oli as well. I just don't feel like myself and I miss me to be honest- well-slept Gemma is cool & full of smiles and jokes.
It isn't all bad though, there have been really great days lately (particularly with Nicole) where everyone is full of life and laughter (wine)- alas today wasn't one of those days hence the above rant.
I just want to sleeeeeep until next Saturday. These bags are growing darker by the day..
Anyway, enough negative hoo haa! The ups are also endless at the mo;
My new housemate is the bees knees, although I only have her for another two days & I am not happy about this. New Zealand is far too far away from Perth I've decided, I'm feeling rather stranded over here. Keryn & Bailey who are mine & Blakes absolute favourite local gal pals, have also decided to pack up and ship off back to the land of the long white cloud just to top it off- whatever will I do without you?!
Oops- that upside kind of took a U turn back down didn't it?
Ups, ups, ups....
A massive up this week was trying on wedding dresses on Saturday. How friggen cool!! I really wish I could share some pics but I can't have Oli creeping on them so I better not, let's just say I'm more than ready to skip up that aisle already!
And Blake, despite throwing some whopper toddler tantrums, is always a big up to my day. Especially when she pulls this hilarious face upon request.
I immediately forget how little sleep I've had when this spew face smiles at me- definite up. His butt chin is the best.
And what's better than a spot of retail therapy to put a smile on a woman's dial?
New navy jumper & a bad ass tee to keep up with Perth's unpredictable climate. (On that note, I swear I am never going shopping with children ever again- I break out in nervous sweats)
Another Up- this weekend is Mothers Day, and I'm pretty stoked for any excuse to be fussed over for an entire day. When I say day it'll probably only be an hour in the morning, but I'm excited nonetheless. And on top of that, I'm turning the big 25 in a couple of weeks too, there are no plans in place as such but I don't plan on letting that one pass by without a bang. I'm thinking I'll have a big sleep party- I'll invite everyone I know around to our house and let them all take turns babysitting whilst being very very quiet so I can snooze for my entire big day. Yes, that sounds grand.
But seriously, 25? That's kind of a big deal. That's also scarily close to 30. Although I'm actually excited for 30 as by then we'll have a 7 and a 6 year old both in school, and a shitload more sleep- bring on 30 I say!
That's enough from me- I hope Monday wasn't too dreary for you all, think of all the ups, such as; you're one step closer to Friday already!
Thought of the day "is that a new wrinkle?"
Gemma
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