Child at heart

When I was younger and adults would ask me what I want to be when I grew up, one week I would say a Dancer. The next week I would say a Writer, and then a Doctor, Actress, Swimmer, Vet, and I think I even entertained the idea of joining the circus at some stage- true story. 

Now I am 24 and I still don't know what it is that I want for a life-long career. I was about to write- "what I want to do with my life", but I retracted that as I know what I want to do with my life, I just don't know which career path is for me. But I would still love to pursue a few of those on my above list to be honest. Does that make me childish? Maybe, but I like to think I'm an optimist.

You see, even though I have had my own child and a half, I still don't feel like a grown up. I still don't take myself too seriously and I still laugh at farts. I still don't like onions and I still hate doing the dishes. I love playing with B's toys almost as much as she does, and I often blast music and dance around the house like a maniac. Maybe too often actually... Oh to be a fly on the wall some days. 

What has changed though is I have found my passions. I am hugely passionate about reading and writing, being a mother, birth, and health and fitness. So when you think about it, I could be a number of things; I could be a writer, or a midwife, or an antenatal teacher or a nutritionist, or even a PE teacher (if I were reeeeally desperate, I remember how much grief I gave my teachers and cringe at the thought). 

I think finding your passions is far more important than finding your career path. Well, maybe not more important actually but I think it should definitely precede finding your career path. Because at the end of the day, if you aren't passionate about what you do- you are going to be miserably watching that clock tick down till 5pm every god damn weekday for the rest of your life. For me personally, I couldn't think of anything worse than being stuck in a job I hate. After all you generally spend over 65% of your life at work!! Your life!! Your one life. Don't like it? Quit. 

So I've found my passions and I know what I want to do with my life. I want to be an outstanding mother and wife first and foremost (gold stars all around), I want to see the world, I want to run a marathon, help out with the cancer society, I want to save the Balinese horses, help out at the SPCA,  I want to spend more time with my family, read a million books, see the northern lights, have a white Christmas, build a house on the beach, sleep under the stars with the kids, go swimming with the sharks whales and dolphins (not at the same time), and jump off the highest bungy in the world. (closet adrenaline junkie) 

I also know who I want to be, a lover, a fighter, an optimist, a dreamer, empathetic, generous, kind, a great listener, and I reeeeally want to become more patient. This is a big one for me as I have little to no patience.

So for now, I'm going to continue being a mother, part time writer, and eternal optimist. This trio seems to be keeping me well and truly on my toes, but I am so looking forward to finding my career path sometime soon. Maybe then I'll feel like a true grown up... Most likely not though.... I think I like it that way :)

What do you want to be when you grow up? 

Thought of the day "maybe I'll sign up for some dance classes"

Happy Monday 

Gemma