Sorry I've been M.I.A lately, I've just been having a shit week to be honest with you.
I don't even have a specific reason for feeling like this either, but I'm guessing it may have something to do with the mountain of extra hormones my body and mind are trying to deal with at the moment...
You know how women have "fat days", well I had a fat week. And not just in the sense that I feel like I'm putting on the pounds and can't fit anything (which is all true, and I fear will only get worse), but just that I felt horrible in general. Physically, mentally & emotionally. So anything from choosing what to wear, to not finding any ripe avocados at the supermarket has left me on the verge of tears this week.
Fucking hormones.
Upon checking up on social media (as we do every 5 minutes in this day and age), I found Instagram to be SO irritating this week. Scrolling through all the posts, and they were all positive and uplifting stuff like "today is a new day so smile" or "embrace every moment as if its your last". Ugh. There were a few "unfollows" that's for sure. These are all well and good, and of course it's good to be positive, but is it ever ok to just feel how you want to feel anymore? Without feeling like you HAVE to cheer up? From what I can see, social media and all the health and wellbeing sites that every girl follows 20 of, are just shoving this stuff down your throat 24/7. So I just switched off and decided that being a grumpy, irrational and emotional bitch is just going to be my thing this week. I embraced the shit out of my hormonal imbalance and just went with it. It felt terrible, but at least it was real. (Poor Oli)
But now I'm over it and I'm feeling great this weekend! Human again even. So I'm going to embrace that too and probably even crack a smile or two, who knows, I've done crazier things.
My point from that rant was, you don't have to feel good all the time, infact, you can feel however the hell you want to feel, it's all part of life. Imagine how the world would be if we were all as cheerful as our Instagram accounts wanted us to be? It'd be like some cheesy enlarged version of the Brady Bunch. Yuck.
Has anyone else felt pressured to be positive lately?
Thought of the day "craving Coldrock like crazy"
Gemma
Im reeeally enjoying your blog!! Its so funny and very relatable.. And yep sometimes the positive ig accounts do my head in too, I know they are just trying to encourage but sometimes encouragement is just annoying! Haha. Everyone especially while preggers has days like that where hormones are out of whack and its gota be best to not fight that and just ride it out! Dont think ive ever heard someone say "bottling up your emotions is great for your wellbeing!" haha glad you're feeling better!! Xx
ReplyDeleteOh thanks Angie, so good to hear I'm
ReplyDeletenot the only one who thinks that! Encouragement is definitely not always welcome haha.... But feeling loads better now, especially after a super delicious large Coldrock this arv!! Xx
I had a mcflurry haha coldrock would have been better!!! Icecream cures all ;)
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