Isn't love just the strangest thing?
It starts out so incredibly powerful, spreading through your entire mind & body like wildfire. All you can think about is that one person, you (being a girl) over-analyse every single conversation, every single txt message until the words are twisted into something completely different to their original meaning. I know that's what I used to do anyway, if Oli would say "yeah come over later" I would freak out & have a mind explosion, "does he want me to stay over? Should I pack just incase? Would that make me look too eager though? But I stayed last night so surely he wants me to stay. He asked me to stay.
I think he loves me."
When really, he just wanted me to come over later.
Haha, ohhhhh I miss those days. Even though they were incredibly frustrating sometimes, the beginning of love is always an incredible experience...
Oli and I had been friends for 3 years before we shacked up together. It was weird, because one day he was just Oli- the shy, lanky guy who barely said boo amongst our group of friends. I loved that about him though, he was very intriguing- and when you did talk to him he always had something really thoughtful or intelligent to say. Fast forward a few years and suddenly, one evening, as we all sat in the same group drinking the same pre-mixed drinks we did every weekend- Oli became handsome. I don't know how he did it? Maybe he was always handsome but I had just never noticed, he would like to think so I'm sure. And that was that. I had to have him.
Fast forward 8 weeks and I was in love. I know that may seem far too early, and a lot of people don't think you can truly love someone until you've been with them for at least a year or whatever, but that was not the case here. I was 100% head over heels in love with this guy. He was incredibly attractive, charming in his own awkward way, intelligent, and most of all downright hilarious. His wit was what had me in his web.
Funny how someone so interesting can be sitting right in front of you for all that time and you don't even know it.
And so we became Oli & Gemma.
That was 5 and a half years ago now and I love him now more than ever. It may sound cliche, but he really is my best friend, my confidant, my rock.
It certainly hasn't all been a fairytale, a lot has happened in that time. We had a year break back in 2010 which left me completely devastated, but it taught us a lot.. Most importantly it taught us that we do infact love each other and want to be with each other so I'm incredibly grateful for that time in that respect.
Since having Blake I've found our relationship moved to an entirely new level. The trust, respect, admiration and loyalty sky rocketed and I am truly in awe of him as a father. When he gets home each afternoon and plays with her, watching them together makes me physically feel warm inside. It is magic. It has also been one of the- if not the most- hardest times for us. It takes a lot of patience and practise to get this parenting stuff flowing, but I couldn't have picked a better person for the job. Oli not only works all day but he gets up first thing with Blake, changes her & feeds her, to allow me a sleep in. He also baths her every night after work and gets her ready for bed. Grateful doesn't even scratch the surface, he is one of the good ones that's for sure.
So here we are, engaged with nearly 2 children. Even just writing that out sounds absurd. Oli Tabak? My husband? The father of my children? How did that happen?! But I could not be happier... I seriously feel so lucky to have found him at such a young age, it means we literally get our whole lives together, how cool is that!!
(Cheeese, but I don't care as this was the best day of my life, he may kill me for putting this one up though but I'm taking the risk)
I hope everyone gets to experience love like this at least once in their life. There is nothing greater than the power of love, embrace it at every opportunity I say. The world would be a better place if there were more lovin' and less hating that's for sure. (I couldn't bring myself to write hatin' there, I just..... No it couldn't happen)
I'll leave you with one of my fav Bob Marley tunes to suit the theme, "Is this love" he is a musical genius.
Happy Friday people.
Love Gemma
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